Life is shit. I don’t even know the true meaning of it anymore. People say teenage year’s are the best in our life, well mine have been a pile of shit and days of full on depression and crying over stupid meaningless things which shouldn’t even bother me, fucking everything up because I’m a hormonal girl. Sick of people asking me the same question ‘are you ok’ and my answer being the same over and over ‘I’m fine’ well no I’m not fucking FINE I’m far from fine, I’m far from anything at the moment, I can’t even describe how I feel, I feel worse than shit worse than a fat person without cake, worse than Jordan Payne without his year7 friends. But nor I go out with a smile on my face and use that fucking word ‘fine’ all the time because the world is full of judgemental pricks and idiots who only are put on this planet to put u down and make u feel like a pile of bastard SHIT!. So fuck you life fuck you. I hate you and I hate what I have become, ruining everything with everyone I’m just completely sick of it all my heads fucked up and I can’t think straight. I put my head  in my pillow with tears flowing down my face nearly every night cause I feel daft telling people my problems!, I’m sick of getting walked all over by immature twats who think there better than everyone else when they can fuck off! I hope they have their next period in a shark tank! Fuck it all I have past caring now so I will do what I want when I want and with who I want, I will say what I want. My life. Don’t like it? GET THE FUCK OUT MY LIFE then.  Relationships are shit at teenage years, well to be honest it depends on who you fall in ‘love’ with we all know at the age of what 12-15 no one proper loves each other but we still convince ourselves we do. We fall so hard for people we know we can’t get, and ignore the people who have feelings for us even when they’re basically right in front of us. Girls have a habit of holding on for too long and boys have a habit of letting go to easy. We all make mistakes now and then and that’s just part of being human, but the one thing that really does my head in is when people who are in a relationship cheat, sorry but relationship has ‘terms and conditions’ if you’re not committed to that person or feel the need to go behind their back and cheat on them then you should get out the relationship before you break that persons heart, the persons heart that you made happy the one who loves you who smiles when they see your name when they get butterfly’s when you see you the one who ‘loves’ you, you should finish it before you hurt them. Relationships are between TWO people not anyone else, and not some slut who decides to come along and ruin it. When someone’s in a relationship it means back the fuck away. Also people who stick their unwanted snotty noses into people’s relationships need their eyeballs spooning out and their teeth pulled out one by one because when people get involved it often fucks relationships up, yes they may be your friends and care about you but along as your happy they should be and then when your down they should be there for you to turn too, the ones to cheer you up and tell you, you deserve better and call that person worse than shit. It pisses me off how people can love each other and then soon as the relationship is over they suddenly hate each other and call each other worse than shit and act like total strangers and like they never meant anything to each other it’s a pile of wank. Lads who want relationships for sex mer needs a gun to their heads not to die because that is sick, but just to put them in hospital, oh and boys who hit girls make me physically Bork just sick in the membrane! I just want a relationship with someone who actually cares about me and likes me for me, someone who i can cuddle up to and just be happy instead of worrying if they like someone else or not. Girls with tits out on photos just to get a few likes and male attention just leave the social networking site and go join a porn site or something because it is vile. I hate school like actually hate it all the teachers are self centred pricks who have nothing better to do than make children’s life hell walking up early to sit in a cold classroom with about 30 people and around 2 people who I actually like is shit. Money this money that mer why can’t I just have a money tree like on Sims it would be so much easier. I like to daydream a lot. My mind just wanders onto something totally different, most of the time I think of things in my head which I wish would happen and plan it all out and wish for the best but then realise I’m always braver in day dreams than I am in real life as it gets to the situation and I go al shy, shit I know but that’s just me. I love a person who replies to messages straight away it makes me feel like they actually want to talk to me like I’m worth their time, I hate people who take ages like why keep me waiting if you don’t want to talk to me tell me ill understand it will save me waiting like a idiot for a reply of someone who hardly knows I exist. Sorry but I can’t control my feelings the more you hide them the more they seem to show and the more you deny them the more they seem to grow loll at life. I hate keeping all the things I want to say to you in my head just because I’m scared to hear your answer in case it starts an argument or something. Well to be honest all of this is just life you just got to say get on with it and see where you end up, you only live once so don’t let anyone stop you from doing what you want. Cool beans chow.

Fucking stupid cow.

Immature bastard!! Fucking ur mates off for a lad who is using you. Lol fuck off.